Hi there,
I know I am behind with this series during the summer. The summer opened up some new paths ahead of me and signaled me to slow down, step back, be a silent witness, and ponder some new moments of truth. Thus, I followed the signs and back again following the new ones.
Let`s continue the journey then.
My body shook left and right as if doing an African tribe dance, like a dragon that has been waking for thousands of years.
In the face of all that I had experienced, I was both afraid and curiously wanting to discover what would happen next. Just as everything in the universe surrenders to cosmic duality, my mind and heart were also scorching under the tide of these contradictions. If I wanted to let go of myself and put wings on my heart and fly like a bird. My mind would get in the way, though. If I dominated my mind, my heart would become silent like an angry friend. I surrendered myself to the moment and the flow. I immerse myself into the unique experience that I may never experience again in my life, to enjoy it, to discover it by surrendering to the wisdom in the unknown. Like a tree that knows that resisting the power of a hurricane will not help, I surrendered myself to this experience without resisting anything at that moment. I dreamed of the bee falling on honey in restlessness.
I closed my eyes and took refuge in the Almighty Creator, as always. “You are forgiving and merciful. You help us your helpless servants. Everything that happens is under your control, the most beautiful and the best. May my life be auspicious, my God."
This pendulum state, which I guessed to last a few minutes, ended with a second shock. With this second shock, my shaking body was ready again. At that moment, I was like an arrow ready to fly away from a warrior's bow.
It was at this moment that Hermes began to speak again.
“The human body consists of seven chakras. The human being, the child of the material and spiritual realms, is a divine being equipped with divine potential beyond his physical body. The spirit blown into man, the caliph of the earth, created in the image of God, is the spark of God in man.
Chakras are the connection gates of the soul to the body. Just as the seven energy pools are gathered in rows on a single channel, the cosmic energy is lined up one after another from the tailbone to the top of the head, like beads lined up on a rosary. Chakras, which are the gateways for cosmic energy to the body, are normally like swirling energy vortices unless they are contaminated by energy blockages. However, as we become addicted to the illusion of worldly life and forget ourselves, the chakras cannot perform fully and keep people away from cosmic energy. So these energy vortices slow down.
I need to prepare you for our journey by increasing your energy level. Until now, I have re-established your connection with cosmic energy by opening all the chakras one by one, from the crown chakra to the root chakra.”
As if all this metaphysical experience I had already had until now was not enough, Hermes' mention of the journey also worried me.
The second part of this ritual, which I didn't know or see until then, begins: "Now it's time to awaken your divine potential!" she told me in a strong voice.
As he finished his words, I heard him strike his wand on the ground again. Like a lightning bolt thrown by Zeus turning stone and earth upside down, this sound took me away from me, the sound filled the whole hall.
“The root chakra, represented by the earth element, is the chakra associated with the survival instinct that connects you to the world, and FEAR closes this chakra.
You cannot open this chakra until you face all your inner fears and get rid of them. Now is the time to face your biggest fears.”
Hermes raised his staff with his right hand, like Moses preparing to split the Red Sea, and began to chant a mantra I did not know. I could neither understand nor hear what they were saying. All I saw was that he was chanting a mantra. When he raised his hand, the crystal of the Caduceus at the tip of his staff had already begun to shine again, and the light spreading around was shadowing the beauty of Hermes's light.
All of a sudden, my worst fears began to flash before my eyes. I was watching a movie screen, but I was both a spectator and an actor. I felt the experiences of both the actor on the stage and the audience, the anxiety, worry, doubt, fear, and shame in him. All the fears and anxieties that had shaken me up until that moment surrounded me.
“I am giving you the opportunity to face all your fears. The greatest power in the universe is love, imagination, and free will. Face your fears with courage. Don't refuse, live your fears. Suppress the fear inside you so you can see it and face it. “
Think about what you fear most. Visualize all your fears on the mind screen.”
I was listening to Hermes with my eyes closed. One by one, all my fears began to appear in front of me like creditor customers. Some were so frightened that I still couldn't clear it, despite all the mental, spiritual, and energy work I've done over the years.
How hard it was to knead and mold the dough. Our habits were solidified in those childhood years that went by without a single piece of consciousness.
As Hermes said, I visualized those glorious experiences that were effective in shaping my dough, which made me live with fear.
I made a list of those fears that took me away, hindered my life, paralyzed me, and stood between me and my dreams.
I found the reasons for each of my fears and the ones that made me experience those fears in my past...
I lined them all up in front of me in an imaginary movie theater...
I invited them to sit in a chair with great kindness and compassion.
On my mind screen, I imagined that the people and other creatures that caused my fears all accepted my invitation, softly and without rejection.
I could not go back and change the past experiences, but as Hermes said, I could visualize what happened with my imagination and those who made me experience them, and I could get rid of these fears, which were the work of my mind, with my free will.
That's what I did. Because I was no longer the helpless person who didn't know what to do when I was a child.
I faced all my fears in front of me in that imaginary hall and those who made me live them.
I allowed myself to experience all those anger, rage, hatred, and other negative emotions.
I let fear paralyze me.
And then I stopped all this imaginary play.
What happened in the past was in the past, and I was no longer the person who was hurt and afraid in that past. I was now a stronger and more competent adult person and I was choosing to be free from these fears. I was choosing to open a new page in my life that is freer, happier, more peaceful, and more serene. Right now and now...
Hermes, wanting to strengthen my experience, began to speak again.
“Trust in life. Remember that the Almighty Creator, who gave the food to the wolf and the bird, has been protecting you until now, and trust that he will provide your food like this from now on.
Live life with active surrender to witness your destiny bloom like a flower, as with every human being.
Your destiny flower will certainly bloom, for it does not bloom before its time. Do not struggle with life knowing that everything is good. Sometimes the auspicious person is the beauty, sometimes the majesty, but all of them are a means of goodness. Stop being afraid of suffering. What will happen will happen. Life gives you what you need, not what you want. “
Until that moment, I had focused only on fears of the past, but with Hermes's guidance, I also included in my meditation my worries about the future, triggered by my fears from the past.
I imagined a blue energy bond between me and all my fears and anxieties about the past and the future. I cut this energy bond in my imagination with great compassion, kindness, gratitude, and gratitude by making the index and middle fingers of my right hand imaginary scissors made of blue energy, and I burned them by throwing them into an imaginary fire burning next to me. However, I did not miss to make sure that the other person approves of this before I cut this bond. All of them had accepted me and what I was doing with humility, peace, and surrender, slightly bowing their heads, just as they silently accepted the task given to Shams Tabrizi, who went to find Mevlana in Anatolia.
As I cut the ties between us, I thanked each of my fears and then gratefully said goodbye to them one by one. I waved goodbye to them like a lover who bid farewell to his lover, whom he could never meet, knowing that they would never come back. And I watched as they slowly drifted away from me like a leaf carried away by the wind and vanished into the horizon.
I felt liberated and relaxed compared to before. Somehow, I was freed from my fears that I had not been able to get rid of for years. I wasn't sure if it was a complete cleansing, but all I knew was peace and relaxation inside. The tears that flowed from my eyes like a flood had already begun to remove the dust, dirt, and rust of years from my heart. That was sufficient proof. The interesting thing is that I have not experienced such a great relief as a result of the inner work I have been doing for years. It means there was a time for everything.
“The root chakra is symbolized by the earth element. Liberating your fears will help you ground and live a life unhindered. It's time to move on to the next chakra," and he prepared me for the next step, and in a way answered my question about whether the previous purification experience was partial or not.
TO BE CONTINUED…
Have a wonderful weekend.
With love,
Kenan