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Let`s continue the story from where we left off last week…
Hermes began to whisper a new mantra that I did not understand. And at that moment, the Kundalini awakened within me and began to rise up from my root chakra. My upper body bent backward as it rose from the root chakra to the sacral chakra. The energy flow that had been falling step by step from the crown chakra to the root chakra a moment ago was ascending the way it had come step by step, accompanied by a feeling of warmth. However, during this ascent, the Kundalini energy moving through my body in each chakra seemed to spend a little longer time as if allowing that chakra to get used to the energy.
Hermes began to speak again. “The sacral chakra, which is the second chakra represented by the water element, is the center of sexual energy in humans, it is related to pleasure and guilt closes this chakra. Face your guilt! Find your mistakes and faults and forgive yourself.”
I closed my eyes again and started meditating. Knowing that no one but me could know the truth wrapped in myself, I began to search within myself for the answers I was looking for.
“Whatever you blame yourself for in life, find them and face them,” Hermes directed me. “Remember, face them and leave them behind!”
I just confronted my guilt this time using the meditation technique that helped me get rid of my fears. Guilt as well as fear was another emotion that connected people to the world and the illusion of the world.
“Leave behind what happened in the past. Leave behind those who hurt you. Leave behind those emotional experiences they left in you. Thank you with love to each experience and to those who made you live this experience, for giving you the experiences that brought you to this day, for making you find yourself in this cosmic theater, and for making you stronger like what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.”
Hermes continued. “Everything that happened is the most beautiful, it happened because it was the way it should be because it was the best.”
My mistakes, my faults, my faults, my mistakes, my sins, my shortcomings... I have forgiven myself for all of them. Whatever happened at that time could not have been otherwise. All of them were exams to make me feel bad for myself.
With that meditation, I accepted the experiences as they are. Beyond acknowledgment, I offered my gratitude for the things I felt guilty about for providing the events and environments that prompted me to seek and awaken.
Whatever happened had happened, and if I could do better, I would have done it already. Since I couldn't do what I couldn't do back then, it couldn't have been otherwise. Then what could I do but accept the past?
I accepted my guilt-ridden mistakes, forgave myself, and loved myself. I hugged myself.
This time I imagined myself in a forest. It was such a forest that the pure energy of all nature filled me with trees, grass, and fresh air, the bees buzzing around me and the birds flying in the sky screaming that this forest was a place of love, as if singing a hymn. I let myself go to that peaceful environment, the calmness of the wind, the joy of the birds, and I imagined that all my guilty feelings were flying into the sky and dissipating with every breath I took. I was a dirty sponge, and in this ocean of love, I was washed with the love that filled me, I was purified, and I stood up again pure and clean.
I stopped blaming myself. And blaming others for what they did to me. As I cleared my mind, I realized that my shoulders went back and my spine straightened. It was as if the weight and burden of all those years had evaporated.
There was no longer that burden that prevented me from enjoying life. I was enough, worthy, and worthy of love just as I am. I didn't have to be a nice kid to get love, approval, and appreciation. Just being myself was enough. It was enough for me to free my mind as myself. It was okay to have mistakes because there was no such thing as mistakes in this mortal and transitory school of life. All were experiences that the soul in the flesh cage needed to mature as long as I learn from my mistakes and repeat them. And as long as I learn from my mistakes and do not get hurt again.
As a servant, I no longer had any other job than to try to live without my shadow as if I were in the presence of God, to live without hurting my heart, that is, by actions that do not create karma, and to walk this thin and long road by making up for my mistake if I make a mistake despite my efforts.
This time Hermes led the process without making a speech indicating that we had passed from one chakra to another. It was impossible not to notice from the mantra he was whispering and the energy that was re-moving in my body. For now, we were done with the sacral chakra, which is symbolized by the water element.
TO BE CONTINUED NEXT WEEK…
Wanna read an excellent wisdom story? Here you go.
“The student of a master painter has completed his education. As the great master bid farewell to his student, "Can you put the last painting you made in the most crowded square of the city?" he said.
“Leave a red pen next to the picture. Don't forget to attach a text asking people to put a cross where they don't like the picture!” he added. The student went to look at the picture a few days later. He saw that the painting was in crosses.
He turned to his master in dismay. The master painter told him to redo the painting.
The student made the painting again. The master asked him to leave the painting in the most crowded square of the city.
But this time he told him to put a palette full of paints of various colors and a few brushes with them.
He suggested that he leave a post asking people to correct the parts they didn't like. The student did as he was told. A few days later, he found that his painting was never touched. He rushed to his master with joy.
The master painter said:
“In the first, you saw how brutal a downpour of criticism can be when people are given the opportunity.
Even people who have never painted in their life came and scribbled on your picture. The second time you asked them to be constructive.
Being constructive requires training. No one dared to correct an issue they did not know about."
- You can't get your money's worth from people who don't know what they're doing.
- Do not offer your labor to those who do not appreciate it.
- Never argue with those who don't know..."
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With love,
Kenan